

Train a child in the way he should go and he will not depart from it. Proverbs 22:6
I also held Kathryn today again while they gave her a new condo. The kids get new beds each week, so they figured that if someone needed to hold her, why not mom!! And it was my first solo hold without the machine telling me of her heart rate and sats because they have to disconnect her from the monitor. She was still hooked to the ventilator, but they told me that the only way to know if she was doing ok was to look at her to see if she looked ok and not rely on the beeps and buzzers.
How do you moms do that and not know if they are dropping their sats or having an apnea or a brady?? I am just kidding - but that just gives you a taste of the fact that moms of NICU babies have a whole different set of problems to concern themselves with, over and above the general concerns of having a baby at home!! I think I will be elated when they tell us she can come home and I also think I will be scared to death (and keep in mind that I have already raised one, but this is a lot different). Anyway, here's the picture of me and my girls!!
Now for the really big one . . . . . .
We got to hold Kathryn for the first time today - 83 days and the first time to hold our daughter!! It was absolutely surreal. I can't even begin to describe the feeling of completeness I had - after 83 days, I was back together with my little munchkin!! The nurses were fairly surprised that I let go of her because they say that moms usually don't volunteer to let go, but I did so that Greg could have his first hold too!! We both held her like it was the most natural feeling even amidst all the wires and tubes. It took the nurses and the respiratory therapist about 15 minutes to get everything ready for us to hold and then it was like a quiet fell over the NICU. That's the first time that I didn't here the beeps and buzzers (and I am certain that they were going off). At one point I looked up and saw at least 10 or 15 nurses around us just watching, so amazed at how well she did. By the way she was satting at 100 % on 40 % oxygen, which is great!!
Anyway, here are some pictures!